Monthly Archives: November 2012

Doubt

Difficult thoughts right now. Wrestling with doubts about God’s wisdom and sovereignty.

Why am I given this struggle? Why has this cross been allotted me? Why this? Why me? Why is this my struggle? Why is mine this fight? Why will it not be removed?

Praying for faith.

“Now He who establishes us with you in Christ and anointed us is God, who also sealed us and gave us the Spirit in our hearts as a pledge.”
2 Co 1:21-22

I am a son of God. I am a son of God. I, who was a child of wrath, have been adopted to be a child of Light. And the Father has given me His own Spirit as a pledge of His faithfulness. Be assured of your salvation and security, soul; the Spirit of the living God dwells within and remains regardless of your frequent failings. Have faith in His faithfulness.

Praying for faith.

“Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
2 Co 4:16-18

These fleshly struggles… these difficulties… these afflictions… They are all temporal. They are all fleeting, and they are all to be done away with at the glorious appearing of the Savior, when the body of my humble state will be transformed “into conformity with the body of His glory”. The Lord will return. And He will wipe away every tear and wash away every last vestige of sin. But will I be able to look forward to that Day with enough faith to say no to sin in this day?

Praying for faith.

“And He has said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.’ Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Co 12:9-10

The Lord’s grace will prove sufficient. It will suffice, and it will carry me through. And Christ will be glorified as I reject sin and seek strength in Him. But will I be able to declare with the Apostle, confidently, in faith, “I am well content with weaknesses for Christ’s sake”?